Hello xanga readers,

Well, once again I'm blogging this thingy again. I'm still alive and living. As for my life, I've been doing great. Well, I'm sorta doing great. Everything is going swell except not a luck on job finding. Summer is coming to an end and fall is soon to swing by. I can't wait for Fall. My favorite season as I may say. Time to start covering up with sweaters and denims. During the summer, I've decided to take one class which is math. Passed with an average A. I'm proud of myself for that. Since Fall is swinging by, I registered for four classes which is another Math class, English, Arts, and Dance. I wish myself luck on these four classes. Looking forward into not having to drop any of these classes. Afterall, I am behind on my school. I need to catch up. I'm planning to finish RCC within 3 years if possible or even better 2 years. In my mean time, I'm going to try to land on a weekend job. Nothing more then that. I understand that it will be a little challengeing finding a weekend job, but  it wealth a try. I'm I right?

Looking into the future, I'm planning to move out soon after finishing Rcc here in South CA. What I'm intersted in right now is earning my Bachelor else where. Beginning to think of moving in with one of my brothers in a different State. I havn't yet determine which brothers yet. Hopfully, they will welcome me in with open hands and allow me to enter there sweet when I told them I'm moving in. California is a nice place to be, but it just not for me. I don't feel welcome here. It's not a place I would call "A Home". Others then that, I'm debating of going to Pre-Med school. Hopfully, medical school will accept me. If I do get accept it, I'll totally will waves both hands in the air and say bye to everything and welcome myself to Pre-Med school. Even though, I know it will be like 1 out of 100 chances, but I want to get into Med school but not sure if I could handle the step. We will see how that goes when the time is right. During the mean time, I'm just going to stay focus, and focusing is what I'm determining to do.

So my little bro got kick out of all the high school in California for the possession of Marijuna, not once, or twice but three times within the semester. Blah! And now my parents starting to annoy me for the problem that my bro causes. It like, i dont care. I do feel like my parents isnt at all a good parents like they think they are.

During a ride home with my mom, i said some awful harsh thing to my mom that i felt guilty for saying, but for some reason i dont feel sorry for saying it. I feel guilty, but not sorry. She just annoy me so much that i couldnt take it, but to let out the truth. I told my mom that "you're not being a good parent" including my dad. Basically, my parents in general. Indeed, i feel guilty. I know what i said was mean, and disrespectful because it seem like im trying to teach my parents something, and they're older than me which is disrespectful telling an elder that. Deep down that is just my feeling. I mean, who would still continue giving money to their child after finding a possession of pipes in his room, not once but 3x's; not tto mention, a marijuna plant that he was trying to grow. As for school wise, he's very behind on his credit and attendence is just dreadful to even look.  Sometimes, or almost all the time, i get really tire with my mom complaining. She always said i"m going back to Vietnam and im going to take my son with me, you and your sis can do what you please living in America. I"m feed up with living in the American society. I hate paying taxes and dadadada" So i got kind of mad and tell her that "If you think living in Vietnam is easy. Then go for it. Living in Vietnam is basically the same as living in American. You still have regulations to follow" and i also said "Vietnam may not be stressful as living in American because of all the responsibilty and bills that we need to take care off, but you have to compare the opportunity that we get. Just because citizens in Vietnam could handle physical but can they handle mental mind. Do many people in Vietnam are literate or are they illiterate?" But yah, i said those thing but maybe in a different form but still same meaning. . I mean, over there not alot of people get a second chance. It either they're parents have money to pays for an education or their child grow up without an education. There education lays on their parents hand. While over here, we get to choose what we please. But yah, i rest my case.

I really want to get accept to UCSB. I'm looking forward into their requirements and to complete their requirements is going to be many obstacle. However, i'm not exactly sure if this is the college i want to transfer. I mean, it just too far if i did got accepted and attend.  Not to mention, how am i going to support myself if i did move that far. That's just going to be a difficult decision for me. But i am going to keep this school in mind. I think I'm going to apply and see what going to happen from there. i know that im thinking about transfering so early, but i have to because if i dont; times just going to shrift by like a blink of an eye. Also, for the fact that I'm just going to struggle going back and forth with the unwanted school that i randomly pick out. Personality, i dont want to go to any college that just accepted me. i dont want to act like i dont care when i know in general that i could so do much better. i mean, i think UCSB is a nice college due to their panorama area. I really do, but i'm confuse. Their so many school out there that i could try transfering. i just dont know where. Maybe one day i should try taking a road trip to UCSB to check out the campus to see if i like the environments. Who knows, i might not like some of the things. Yeah, i think i shall do that.

Hi readers:

How it going for peoples that are interested in my life? Im bored as for right now. Just sitting here watching some weird show and then i decided to update this blog. Anyways, I had a wonderful day today, especially throughout the evening. I tooked a walk to the park. Havn't been there in awhile. Everything there just lively. It made me felt like the world is living again. Watching people indugling themself through these beautiful world that we are living . in. The smiles that brought upon a person face just makes me felt very ravishing happy. Im thinking of making a new xanga and want to leaves this site behind. Really I do. But i just havn't thought of a new name for it yet, but when i do; I'll make sure to leave my new site on here for you random people to read.

As for my social life, well let's just say, I really admired my english teachers, Mrs. Olga. She has woken me up and made me realizes alot of things about "life" by giving me an usual speech that i do believe that i wouldnt be able to hear from others teacher which makes her stand out. i dont think i will ever forget her. Her speech and lucturing will always remain in my heart. It sort of like, if  this has ever occur to you, a speech that made you open up to the world and you will never forget that teachers due to the things she says. She saids, if i remember correctly or try to remember correctly, something about if I dont try and care about my life, then who will?. or something similiar to it. Right there and then, it made me think. In precise, I learn to care more about my life and not allowing the time to control me. Ever since then, I have try to pay attention more in class instead of sleeping. Yeah, I still do sleep in class because well, i dont know. Maybe the lack of the subject didnt interest me. However, when i try to stay focus and not slock off, I realized many complicanted things about grammars that i didnt think i would need to learn and use it in the near future. There just a lot of rules to grammars. Interesting rules as i may says. I realized my grammars isnt at all perfect. I made lots and lots of mistake and i didnt bother fixing it. When i finally understood the rules, i realized that grammars will use against me later on if i dont learn to fix it now. In general, Mrs Ogla is just one of those bizarre teachers that you wont see often, going around, giving a speech that could change your life forever. I'm going to write her a 'thank you' letter because she has change my life in a way that i couldnt express into words and i admire her for that. Truely i do.

Frankly, as for my personal life, I have a achieved a goal longing to confront for years. I have, indeed, read 12 books throughtout the month. Each books are approxiamately 400 pages or more. Honestly, i did read that much. Never thought i could read that much, but i did. So relieves and sincerely, after reading that much. I felt smart and i felt like i could understand more and thinks more clearly than before. Before, everything just bubbles. Sometimes i wonder, why did i read that much? Maybe because of anger that im going through that cause me to read. I'm guessing reading jsut relaxed me. After finishing one books, i couldnt help but to pick up another one. Right now, im reading this books that envy me. The beginning was sort of confusing, but once you get to the middle. It become interesting. I didnt like how it starts out though because of the sexually profanity that was use in it. Other than that, it an interesting book if your the type that prefer romantic novals. The book is called "The White Rose" if you're interesting in what i am currently reading. Anyways, i think i shall stop here. Until next time.